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mga napulot ko sa http://lifeisabeautifulstruggle.tumblr.com

  • When someone walks out of your life, let them. There’s no use in wasting your time on people who have left you. What you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them. Yeah, you may miss them, but remember that you weren’t the first one to give up.
  • (I don’t understand) how people can erase you from their lives just because it’s easier than working things out.
  • Letting go doesn’t mean giving up. It means accepting things that weren’t meant to be. There’s a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone, trying to fix everything, but it’s not giving up. You got to do what’s right for you even if it hurts. I’ve come to realize in the end, everyone turns out to be the person they swore they’d never become.
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Nina Howard

from the newsroom, I met this very intriguing character by the name of Nina Howard.

backgrounder:

Will, while under the influence of illegal substance, sent a voice mail to his estranged wife, Mackenzie (Mac),  telling her that he never stopped loving her. Years ago, Mac cheated on Will. Now, they are working together in a newsroom, trying to bring back the glory days of television news reporting.

That voice mail got hacked. It was diverted to Nina Howard’s phone, a reporter for a gossip magazine commissioned to bring down and crush Will. Nina heard the message. Obviously, it was a scoop. Will was high – while covering a big news event. But surprisingly, she went to Mac and told her that she knew Will was high, but she doesn’t want to break the news.

That moment I knew Nina feels something special for Will. O masyado lang akong lumaki sa pinoy teleserye. She was hurting when she played the voice mail, when she knew Will still loves Mac.

Weeks passed, Nina told Will that she knew what the message was. Mac was dying to find out what the rest of it was. Will only told him the first part of the message (“I am not only telling this because I’m high”) and pretended he forgot the rest. Of course, Mac did not believe Will because she’s still hoping that they would get back together, or at least that Will has already forgiven her.

Of all people, Mac asked Nina if she knew what the rest of the message was. Kanino pa ba sya magtatanong di ba? AND HERE WAS WHAT HAPPENED. She said she “doesn’t really remember word for word”.  She said a lot of things, but she made sure she would not say what Mac wanted to hear.

LESSON (or note to self):

Ang galing ni Nina! Tama naman eh. Bakit kailangan sa kanya pa manggaling na “Oo mahal ka pa n’ya” eh masakit nga sa kanya. One way or another, fate will bring them together, so bakit kailangang magpakamartir di’ba? She could have done Mac a favor, but she just chose to protect herself from additional pain. Maybe she was hiding the truth, but what good would it bring if she tells Mac about the message? They would still end up together (I guess), kahit hindi sa kanya manggaling. She saved herself, and I guess that was the best thing to do.

unstable emotions, broken hearts, second chances

why do we give chances? sabi nga, bakit mo bibigyan ng isa pang pagkakataon, kung malinaw naman na sinayang niya yung (mga) nauna?

siguro kasi alam mo na kaya mong magtiwala. and that’s good. imagine, trusting the people who have hurt you in the past. mahirap yun, pero kaya mo.

you don’t look at the worthiness of that person when giving second chances, feeling ko ang tinitignan dun eh yung kakayahan mong umunuwa, magpatawad at magtiwala. marami na tayong narinig na kwento ng mga taong paulit-ulit na niloko, iniwan, binalikan. ilang beses na natin silang sinabihan ng tanga, pero i came to realize that giving second (or third, or fourth) chances says a lot more about the giver.

often than not, when we hear of second chances, ang tinitignan agad natin yung taong binigyan ng pagkakataon – worthy ba? magbabago kaya? we tend to forget about the person who gave him or her another chance. huhusgahan pa nga natin yung tao eh. pero mahirap pala ha. it all comes down to the ability to trust (again), hoping everything will be better this time.

to unstable emotions, broken hearts, and second chances, cheers!

so here’s what you miss

(lakas maka so here’s what you miss. kala mo sinusubaybayan ng bayan haha)

dapat talaga uuwi ako noong May 10. all-set na. nakausap ko na rin ibang friends ko, nakapaghanda na ng weekend getaways, naiplano na ring mag-eescort ako sa sagala! haha ganon na sya kaplanado. suddenly, tinanong ako ni kaibigang R kung gusto ko daw ba lumipat ng trabaho sa kanila. eh tyempo hindi na healthy ang mga kaganapan sa current work ko that time, so I decided to resign. that is why my return tickets got forfeited.

so yun nga, new work, new place, new group, new boss. sobrang haggard yung first week ko. una sa lahat, hindi na ako sanay magbyahe. nilalakad ko lang papunta sa dati naming office. mam nung first week ko nagdududuwal ako everytime nasa kotse ako. nakakastress talaga.

pero di pa dun natatapos ang stress. after ko makaadjust sa pagbbyahe, inay sobrang haggard ng trabaho. may mga bagay na ipinapagawa sakin na wala naman akong kahit katiting na background. (kagaya ng Adobe Illustrator at kung anu-anong business intelligence software) kaya on the spot! sabay ang learning at performance!! and worse, sobra sa overtime. parang 9:30am to 11:00pm? daig ko pa ang guard na naka-12hour shift sa Rizal Park. Haggardo Versoza and extended family… and friends.. and family of friends!!!

nakakagulantang ang mga ganap. gabi-gabi kong iniisip kung papasok pa ba ako bukas o magAWOL na lang ako, wala pa naman akong kontrata at visa kaya pwede pa! pero sabi ko hindi naman ako ganun kaduwag. kung pipiliin ko kasi, at kung makakahanap ako ng ibang trabaho na nasa comfort zone ko, hindi ako matututo. naaalala ko sa first company na pinasukan ko, pinupush ako ng friends ko na mag-apply para sa higher position, sabi ko ayoko kasi may overtime. kung gaganon na naman ako, bukod sa nagsasayang lang ako ng oportunidad, mabubulok lang ang sarili ko kakagawa ng mga bagay na alam ko naman kaya ko. siguro panahon na para pumasok sa bagay na wala talaga akong kaalam-alam and from there, let’s see what will happen next. bahala na sa overtime, wala naman akong babaeng kakaratin na naghihintay sa pag-uwi ko! bahala na kung mapagalitan/masigawan kung hindi ko mameet ang expectations ni Boss, at least sinubukan. bahala na kung matanggal, basta nagawa ko na yung alam kong kaya kong ibigay.

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on to a new world! i’m up for the challenge, so bring it on beybeh. (tapang ko, tapos iyak-iyak ako neto sa sunod kong overtime hahaha)

here’s to hoping that one day you’d stop

i pity you, really. in the situation that you are in now, you should be happy and contented, or at least appreciative of the good things that are happening despite your out-of-this-world selfishness.

i told myself that i will never speak of you again. i was hoping that one day you’d stop relating the stories and finding connections (which i find really pathetic). until i realized that you’re the type who will never stop. you’re selfish and an attention-seeker, not a pretty combination my dear.

when will you ever stop wanting things? why do you want your hands full all the time?

let go and treasure what you have. count your own blessings, never compare and be thankful. learn to forgive yourself.

i wish you peace of mind. 🙂

Moving On Series (Simula)

great read! 🙂

Bagotilyo

PROLOGUE

 

Wow!! Prologue talaga? Bilang ako ay isang frustrated author at alam kong malakas maka”Libro” pag may prologue , hayaan niyo na kong gawan ng paunang salita ang moving on series ko na isinulat ko magdadalawang taon na rin ang nakakalipas. Pwede ba or pwedeng-pwede ba? Asahan niyo pong sa mga susunod na araw , linggo , buwan o taon maglalagay din ako ng epilogue , acknowledgement ,  Dedication (with pictures ng EX) at kung ano-ano pa. Pero maniwala ka naka move on na talaga ako! Pramis!

Gumawa ako ng prologue hindi dahil ayokong matapos ang series , Hindi dahil ayokong makalimutan siya (gustong- gusto ko na, hindi ko lang kaya). Sadyang may mga bagay lang talaga sa buhay natin na kahit lagyan mo ng tuldok hindi pa rin matapos tapos. Kasi minsan hindi natin napapansin na series of tuldok na pala ang ginagawa at nilalagay natin gaya nito:

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